Friday, September 10, 2010
I had a horrible night. Cried so bad. But I was talking to Jeremy and he made me realize that God is always there w his overflowing love. He will forgive me of all my wrongdoings. :D really thank my spiritual brother for being there. :D and weiann too!!! I just love how I never tell her things yet she'll know and be there for me. :):):):) I have rededicated my life to him and know that he died in the cross for me and my sins. I want to more like you and less of me.
我已经接受了这个实事，已经是个大孩子不会为了这件事而哭。
For I have the lord w me, no one shall hurt me.
what we could have been, Friday, September 10, 2010.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
I made a big decision of my life today. To not go for my organ exam and go in march. Firstly is because I'm really not feeling well. Secondly is because I don't feel prepared yet. So, yeah. I hope I don't regret man. Sigh. If only you were here to tell me everything is fine...
what we could have been, Tuesday, September 07, 2010.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
im feeling depressed now because i deleted my sec 1 sec 2 sec 3 blog posts! D:
hahahhahaha just felt like ranting about something.
o levels is near and i seem to be the only one still relaxed and not panicking when im not prepared.
prelims is now but im here blogging.
sigh sigh.
and i still can say i want to go jc?
seriously speaking, i know i wont make it to a jc la. like come on.
got back my chinese results alr and thtat day i cried like -.-
even before i got my results i was crying... :/
as they were showing the list of names for distinction and my name wasn't there, nobody in my class taking this year got distinction, i started crying like, water tap.
hahahahah.
yes, i know im over.
hahahaha.
i just hate it how people say,' its only chinese what'
yes its only chinese for you but not for me?
chinese is one of my strongest subject and if my strongest subject i dont get distinction, what about the rest?
sigh.
okay, i shld learn to get over it.
church, i remember two weeks back, i cried like mad in church.
even when i was just walking to the usual seats, i felt the tears in my eye.
i told myself no i cant.
but during worship, God's presence was just so strong and knowing that im sinning and i still do it, i just cant help it. i cried and cried and cried. for like the whole time, even during cell...
i just cant control my tears.
40 dof, eveything has been going on smoothly for m group...
things are getting better!
i still feel the excitement for every upcoming 40 dof session do you? :D
theres upcoming cell bbq and upcoming wow chase! im super excited!!! :D:D
my birthday is coming up.
and im not happy. i may seem like i am but im not. all the memories of having my bestfriend by my side... and now, i dont. nobody exactly asked me out on my birthday and it depressed me. in church, i said that my birthday is coming up... hoping that all of you out there still remember.
clique, difted.
quarreled w many sweethearts.
i do miss them.
i guess, many forgot when is my birthday alr huh?
its okay, i will still remember yr birthdays humans.
okay nobody knows which humans im refering to? hahahahaha i know can alr.
those special to me once, will be special to me forever.
joanna, elaine, gen, eda, susie.o. veronica
i miss this 6 the most i miss those times we spent.
okay, maybe im just pmsing. feeling so insecure about everything on earth these days, whats w me.
hahahhahaha just felt like ranting about something.
o levels is near and i seem to be the only one still relaxed and not panicking when im not prepared.
prelims is now but im here blogging.
sigh sigh.
and i still can say i want to go jc?
seriously speaking, i know i wont make it to a jc la. like come on.
got back my chinese results alr and thtat day i cried like -.-
even before i got my results i was crying... :/
as they were showing the list of names for distinction and my name wasn't there, nobody in my class taking this year got distinction, i started crying like, water tap.
hahahahah.
yes, i know im over.
hahahaha.
i just hate it how people say,' its only chinese what'
yes its only chinese for you but not for me?
chinese is one of my strongest subject and if my strongest subject i dont get distinction, what about the rest?
sigh.
okay, i shld learn to get over it.
church, i remember two weeks back, i cried like mad in church.
even when i was just walking to the usual seats, i felt the tears in my eye.
i told myself no i cant.
but during worship, God's presence was just so strong and knowing that im sinning and i still do it, i just cant help it. i cried and cried and cried. for like the whole time, even during cell...
i just cant control my tears.
40 dof, eveything has been going on smoothly for m group...
things are getting better!
i still feel the excitement for every upcoming 40 dof session do you? :D
theres upcoming cell bbq and upcoming wow chase! im super excited!!! :D:D
my birthday is coming up.
and im not happy. i may seem like i am but im not. all the memories of having my bestfriend by my side... and now, i dont. nobody exactly asked me out on my birthday and it depressed me. in church, i said that my birthday is coming up... hoping that all of you out there still remember.
clique, difted.
quarreled w many sweethearts.
i do miss them.
i guess, many forgot when is my birthday alr huh?
its okay, i will still remember yr birthdays humans.
okay nobody knows which humans im refering to? hahahahaha i know can alr.
those special to me once, will be special to me forever.
joanna, elaine, gen, eda, susie.o. veronica
i miss this 6 the most i miss those times we spent.
okay, maybe im just pmsing. feeling so insecure about everything on earth these days, whats w me.
what we could have been, Wednesday, September 01, 2010.
