recently, going where after o level's have keep bothering me. pardon my english. im really tired. haven't really got enough and proper rest this week. and why am i not sleeping but blogging is because im studying. having a break. tmr got ss and poa test. sigh. why must they keep testing us. i feel like i cant do this anymore. its so stressful. i need someone tht i can pour out to be here. but, its hard. i know i have many friends out there willing to listen to me but im not comfortable. like, i just, have, a fear? idk. i really want to shout it out loud tht i give up. i really dont want to do this anymore. i feel vvvvvvvv stupid everytime i study. but i must say because of this, i realise im growing more and more holy. because i know i need him to be here w me. to be here everytime i do my work. i know i can pour out to him and he has alr planned my path for me. just waiting for me to ask him and be willing to go his way. having a soft heart and not harden my heart. i am willing lord. take me to do yr ways. despite the stress, i know i can do it.
i can, you can, we can!
what we could have been, Thursday, July 08, 2010.