Thursday, November 5, 2009
i hate it when night falls and im starting to be alone in the room listening to songs and thinking of you, missing you. yr the first tht i actually dont dare to text because im afraid i might disturb you. it's been some time since we met. sometimes i wish you dont have to work so hard because i want yr attention. i know im selfish. but i know at the same time, if you just please me, you wont be happy. and all i want is for you to be happy. tmr maybe the last day i go out all day for this holiday. i wish you'll ask me out. tmr im gg to the hospital in the morning den meet my girls. friday i have training den probably i'll go to the hospital all the way till eleven den im starting to work. after i start working i'll only be free on saturdays.
Every night i look out of my window, sky is dark den i look at my phone to check the time and i'll think of you, wonder if you've got home, wonder if yr tired, wonder if anything happened and also, wonder if yr also wondering about me, thought i know you wont be.
After i got my new laptop, i come online every night and wait. hoping you'll come online and talk to me? or at least come online. because if yr online, at least i know yr home safely. because of you, i learn to wait patiently for someone. the feeling never fade. when i read yr blog, i say, 'her' you stated. i wonder, who is it? a part of me dont wish its me for i fear tht yr feeling may fade someday and i may lose you. i wish tht its a girl who may shower you w love and care. And of cos, someone you'll have happiness with. some may say love is selfish and im stupid. yes, this have been proven once, twice or maybe trice. but i still want my love one to be happy and thts most important to me. if i got you but yr not happy w me, den whts the point. i rather not have you but kow tht yr happy.
boy, i love you.
Every night i look out of my window, sky is dark den i look at my phone to check the time and i'll think of you, wonder if you've got home, wonder if yr tired, wonder if anything happened and also, wonder if yr also wondering about me, thought i know you wont be.
After i got my new laptop, i come online every night and wait. hoping you'll come online and talk to me? or at least come online. because if yr online, at least i know yr home safely. because of you, i learn to wait patiently for someone. the feeling never fade. when i read yr blog, i say, 'her' you stated. i wonder, who is it? a part of me dont wish its me for i fear tht yr feeling may fade someday and i may lose you. i wish tht its a girl who may shower you w love and care. And of cos, someone you'll have happiness with. some may say love is selfish and im stupid. yes, this have been proven once, twice or maybe trice. but i still want my love one to be happy and thts most important to me. if i got you but yr not happy w me, den whts the point. i rather not have you but kow tht yr happy.
boy, i love you.
what we could have been, Thursday, November 05, 2009.
