Tuesday, September 29, 2009
idk why im feeling this way.
i know im not pmsing or whatever.
idk if you'll read this but idc anymore.
everyone is trying to match make us.
i once thought i liked you (i knew tht it wasnt love)
i once thought of giving you a chance if you asked.
i once thought i can get over _ when you entered my life.
i once thought i see us. (if you get what i mean)
but, yst,
i couldnt sleep.
i pondered about many things.
About looking for jobs, dancing, studies, and most importantly,
i pondered about if i was serious about you.
and suddenly, its not you i was missing.
it was _.
i always thought im over _.
it was long ago.
quite some time ago infact.
but those sweet sweet memories are still there.
everytime i think of _ i think of those happy things and the corner of my lips will natually go up.
despite all the fights, quarrels, and unhappy moments.
den, i thought to myself.
its _ tht came into my mind, why not you.
it den woke me.
im not in love w you.
i dont even like you more than a friend (?)
i dont want to be more than friends
i dont want to lead you on (if you do)
i dont want this kind of hanging feeling to be in me anymore.
i h8 this.
i wish i could ask you straight in yr face if you liked me (like how all others say)
i wish i could tell you straight in yr face tht its not possible for the 2 of us.
i typed one whole chunk but, blogger only left this part. maybe, its better for somethings to be left unsaid.
i know im not pmsing or whatever.
idk if you'll read this but idc anymore.
everyone is trying to match make us.
i once thought i liked you (i knew tht it wasnt love)
i once thought of giving you a chance if you asked.
i once thought i can get over _ when you entered my life.
i once thought i see us. (if you get what i mean)
but, yst,
i couldnt sleep.
i pondered about many things.
About looking for jobs, dancing, studies, and most importantly,
i pondered about if i was serious about you.
and suddenly, its not you i was missing.
it was _.
i always thought im over _.
it was long ago.
quite some time ago infact.
but those sweet sweet memories are still there.
everytime i think of _ i think of those happy things and the corner of my lips will natually go up.
despite all the fights, quarrels, and unhappy moments.
den, i thought to myself.
its _ tht came into my mind, why not you.
it den woke me.
im not in love w you.
i dont even like you more than a friend (?)
i dont want to be more than friends
i dont want to lead you on (if you do)
i dont want this kind of hanging feeling to be in me anymore.
i h8 this.
i wish i could ask you straight in yr face if you liked me (like how all others say)
i wish i could tell you straight in yr face tht its not possible for the 2 of us.
i typed one whole chunk but, blogger only left this part. maybe, its better for somethings to be left unsaid.
what we could have been, Tuesday, September 29, 2009.
I realise i dont have a proper post for vvv long. soon alright! soon i will! :D
what we could have been, Tuesday, September 29, 2009.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
grad night over.More photos on fb :D
not gg school tmr.
out w beng b and s :D
love you all.
XOXO
what we could have been, Sunday, September 27, 2009.
Friday, September 25, 2009
NO PICTURES TAKEN TDAY D:
went out w b the day before yst, yst and today! :D
love her to the max max max! :D
went to do our nails today.
:D
tmr morning, gg to get my hair done?
afternoon, school.
grad night, home.
:D gg to watch the ugly truth on sunday/monday w the usuals.
kkk, short post, goodbyee.
whenever i say take care, sth happens.
plsplspls take good care of yrself. ily.
went out w b the day before yst, yst and today! :D
love her to the max max max! :D
went to do our nails today.
:D
tmr morning, gg to get my hair done?
afternoon, school.
grad night, home.
:D gg to watch the ugly truth on sunday/monday w the usuals.
kkk, short post, goodbyee.
whenever i say take care, sth happens.
plsplspls take good care of yrself. ily.
what we could have been, Friday, September 25, 2009.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Dad just called he says he is not free.
IN THE END ALSO I GO MYSELF FOR WHAT WAIT SO LONG.
FUCKERS.
FUCKING ANGRY.
TMD TMD
TMD
IN THE END ALSO I GO MYSELF FOR WHAT WAIT SO LONG.
FUCKERS.
FUCKING ANGRY.
TMD TMD
TMD
what we could have been, Thursday, September 24, 2009.
GRRR.
Everyone is so excited for grad night tis sat.
but im not at all.
dress code is suppose to be formal but its gg to be held in shcool.
So how formal can it get.
So, how formal is their formal?
I heard from some of my friends tht they're wearing like super formal dresses like those from botique kind.
But some just dresses from prolly topshop or what.
So how now.
i have like two dresses to choose from,
the others i like, mommy dont.
mommy like, i dont.
so, last 2,
One plain Pink which i mean pink pink
One brown one.
i dont want to wear my brown one cas its so sad.
i mean, brown is a sad colour right?
oh gosh.
i wish i was a boy now.
Boys are so easy w whatever they wear.
Look, no matter what they wear, its just somehow the same.
They dont have to do anything w their nails, dont have to find a pretty shoe/heel.
Life seems so easy for them, from my point of view.
okay, back to my dresses.
the pink one, needs to be alter.
But, mommy hasnt time to bring me to get it alter.
and look, its alr thursday today?!?!?
i told her i'll go myself but she insist on gg w me.
I called her just now to tell her about it.
Now, she say shes gg to ask pops to bring me later.
Whats the diff if i go myself?!?
My nails are not done.
tmr, im gg to get it done.
sat morning im gg to get my hair and make up done.
everything is in a rush.
might as well dont go.
Every other girll will look pretty and at their best on grad day im sure.
i dont think i will.
i think with how i may look, mrs j wont even let me in-.-
GRRR. enough of ranting,i guess.
Today, skipped school again.
tmr, not gg either i guess.
Monday im gg. told sissaye i'll go.
oh wells.
tmr, getting nails done, out w b.
sat morning, hair and make up, school.
i hope you were here to confort me and tell me i'll look fine on saturday.
Everyone is so excited for grad night tis sat.
but im not at all.
dress code is suppose to be formal but its gg to be held in shcool.
So how formal can it get.
So, how formal is their formal?
I heard from some of my friends tht they're wearing like super formal dresses like those from botique kind.
But some just dresses from prolly topshop or what.
So how now.
i have like two dresses to choose from,
the others i like, mommy dont.
mommy like, i dont.
so, last 2,
One plain Pink which i mean pink pink
One brown one.
i dont want to wear my brown one cas its so sad.
i mean, brown is a sad colour right?
oh gosh.
i wish i was a boy now.
Boys are so easy w whatever they wear.
Look, no matter what they wear, its just somehow the same.
They dont have to do anything w their nails, dont have to find a pretty shoe/heel.
Life seems so easy for them, from my point of view.
okay, back to my dresses.
the pink one, needs to be alter.
But, mommy hasnt time to bring me to get it alter.
and look, its alr thursday today?!?!?
i told her i'll go myself but she insist on gg w me.
I called her just now to tell her about it.
Now, she say shes gg to ask pops to bring me later.
Whats the diff if i go myself?!?
My nails are not done.
tmr, im gg to get it done.
sat morning im gg to get my hair and make up done.
everything is in a rush.
might as well dont go.
Every other girll will look pretty and at their best on grad day im sure.
i dont think i will.
i think with how i may look, mrs j wont even let me in-.-
GRRR. enough of ranting,i guess.
Today, skipped school again.
tmr, not gg either i guess.
Monday im gg. told sissaye i'll go.
oh wells.
tmr, getting nails done, out w b.
sat morning, hair and make up, school.
i hope you were here to confort me and tell me i'll look fine on saturday.
what we could have been, Thursday, September 24, 2009.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
CUTE OR WHAT?!?!!?HIS SLANG IS DAMN CUTE TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
what we could have been, Tuesday, September 22, 2009.
skipped school tday.went for breakfast w mommy and pops cas mommy wanted to go to the alteration to alter my grad night dress.
But, alteration was closed.
Grr.
wake up so earlt for nothing. ):
later gg to fetch B from school den hang around till 7.30?
she has to go back for her band investiture.
haha.
:D
One more photo i forgot to upload tht day.
what we could have been, Tuesday, September 22, 2009.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Good girl in school u. - Went for breakfast w mommy and pops
- headed to fetch Rivy
- reach school
- crapped like always :D
- hall
- walk up and down stage
- get tickets
- left early
- took cab w Rivy and Jia hui
- Rivy's house
- wanted to study but failed to.
- Electone
- hsh
i want to dance again.
i want lg crystal.
i want to dye hair.
i want to get more clothes!
i want to get more baggies!
i want n's to faster end!
i want to faster decide which country to go so tht mommy can book tickets for me and W.
i want to stop my stomach from being upset.
i want good N cert
i want my brain to tell me to go sec5 or not (if i pass)
i want everyone to be happy.
i want you! :D
i want to stop wanting and start making things come trueeeeeeeeeee!
what we could have been, Saturday, September 19, 2009.
why am i up at such ungodly hour?
BECAUSE I GOT SCHOOL LATER!
And if i go back to sleep now, i wont be able to wake up plus i'll be even tired.
So, here i am!
BECAUSE I GOT SCHOOL LATER!
And if i go back to sleep now, i wont be able to wake up plus i'll be even tired.
So, here i am!
what we could have been, Saturday, September 19, 2009.
Friday, September 18, 2009
tday, skipped school again,
slept till afternoon, watched some taiwan show on mysoju, studied and yeah, lifeless.
i know right.
After n's den i'll enjoy! :D
Tmr,
morning, fetch Rivvy den head to school for some graduation shyt.
Didnt know about it till Rivy told me just now.
damn damn damn. D:
den head to Rivy's house to study,
organ,
out w S,J,B,R and TX ?
yeah, thts about it.
MONDAY NO SCHOOL!!! :D:D:D
I WANNA GO PICNIC.
SHALL TELL MOMMY ABOUT IT WHEN SHE GETS HOME! :D
what we could have been, Friday, September 18, 2009.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
/edit. took the photo off cas i think its gross! HAHAHAH.
HI EARTHLINGS!
It says, screwed up english!
yay! nice photo of our legs/feet! after soooooooooooo long! :D
It says EAT SHIT! HAHAHAHAH look carefully.
Having fun me!
Act hardworking claire!
HI EARTHLINGS!
I came online just to blog! :D
didnt go school today.
met claire in the afternoon, went to tampines library to study, NOT PRODUCTIVE AT ALL.
got chased out,
got chased out,
LIBRARIAN: 'THIS IS NOT A LAUGHING ISSUE'
ME: 'OKAY, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH'
ME: 'OKAY, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH'
hahah. tampines is a sad place.
HAHAHAHA TAMPINES LIBRARY HAS SAD PEOPLE CANT EVEN LAUGH.
Then headed to tm to get some stuff and hsh.
Not gg school tmr either. :D
AND, i'm not using twitter anymore! i've changed to plurk!
but idk if i regret deleting my twitter.
but idk if i regret deleting my twitter.
FINALLY, I CAN UPLOAD PHOTOS!
It says, screwed up english!yay! nice photo of our legs/feet! after soooooooooooo long! :DIt says EAT SHIT! HAHAHAHAH look carefully.[pouts]
Having fun me!Act hardworking claire!
what we could have been, Thursday, September 17, 2009.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Yst night, i had a sad dream.
i dont really remember it but i know i woke up still crying.
jaq was in the dream, and clare also i think.
they were saying about nxt year, not having some ppl from our class moving up.
sigh, so sad uh.
actually, idk if i want to go sec 5 even if i pass.
idw to go through all this pain to study and chiong for exams all over again.
its so terrible.
but, o level cert is an important cert.
oh gosh.
im contradicting myself.
so how now Alicia pan.
What do you want in life man.
terrible girl.
6 more papers to go den im free from this horrible stress.
Maybe its because im pms-ing thts why im saying all this.
HHAHAHAHAHA.
dont think im gg school tmr either.
Dad's only coming home tmr night.
if i dont go school tmr, im gg to wake up early and go somewhere, idk where but somewhere to study all day.
Tht's confirm.
i cannot waste anymore time, although i know im wasting time here blogging.
grr.
oh, tell you all about my sad life.
i saw a blueblack on my left knee just now so i went to rub.
den i rub until my skin tear.-.-
Pain okay!
after so, i went to bathe.
so obviously you bathe finish you come out comb hair right?
i was combing my hair happily, den my brush pulled the back of my stud tht thingy.
F pain i tell you.
in pain, i still had to look for the thingy for the back of the stud right?
den i kneel down to find the thing and my right knee rubbed against some plug on the floor and it scratched me.
-.- i know. but, my skin like vvv thin uh, it tear also.
HAHAHAHAHA
so, both my knee hurts now.
i so can go write in fml man.
grr.
now, im waiting for mommy to come home den we'll mum mum.
and, im sleeping w mommy tonight cas dad's not around. :D
we can have nice long chat then. (:
i dont really remember it but i know i woke up still crying.
jaq was in the dream, and clare also i think.
they were saying about nxt year, not having some ppl from our class moving up.
sigh, so sad uh.
actually, idk if i want to go sec 5 even if i pass.
idw to go through all this pain to study and chiong for exams all over again.
its so terrible.
but, o level cert is an important cert.
oh gosh.
im contradicting myself.
so how now Alicia pan.
What do you want in life man.
terrible girl.
6 more papers to go den im free from this horrible stress.
Maybe its because im pms-ing thts why im saying all this.
HHAHAHAHAHA.
dont think im gg school tmr either.
Dad's only coming home tmr night.
if i dont go school tmr, im gg to wake up early and go somewhere, idk where but somewhere to study all day.
Tht's confirm.
i cannot waste anymore time, although i know im wasting time here blogging.
grr.
oh, tell you all about my sad life.
i saw a blueblack on my left knee just now so i went to rub.
den i rub until my skin tear.-.-
Pain okay!
after so, i went to bathe.
so obviously you bathe finish you come out comb hair right?
i was combing my hair happily, den my brush pulled the back of my stud tht thingy.
F pain i tell you.
in pain, i still had to look for the thingy for the back of the stud right?
den i kneel down to find the thing and my right knee rubbed against some plug on the floor and it scratched me.
-.- i know. but, my skin like vvv thin uh, it tear also.
HAHAHAHAHA
so, both my knee hurts now.
i so can go write in fml man.
grr.
now, im waiting for mommy to come home den we'll mum mum.
and, im sleeping w mommy tonight cas dad's not around. :D
we can have nice long chat then. (:
what we could have been, Wednesday, September 16, 2009.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
not gg school tmr,
dad leaving to kl.
dad leaving to kl.
what we could have been, Tuesday, September 15, 2009.
Okay, annoying. someone must really come tell me why i cannot upload photos. [frowns]
yst,
met up w ms yap, Claire and Sindy.
waited for darling Claire at tam sec bus stop for a long long time.
but i was on the phone w her luh.
listening to her complaining about how bad her heels were.
When she reach, she practically ran to me.
we wore same green 3 inch heels. (she said she measured.) LOL
i doubt so luh huh?
i bet yr reading this and swearing and cursing me now right?
HAHAHAHAHA
den, 'YONG TAU WHO' is my name.
LOL
INSIDE JOKE.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH
i still cant get over it.
OMG
went for dinner, w ms yap den Sindy came
after dinner, sindy left to meet her friends. ms yap went home,
Claire and i bought slippers so tht our feet wont die.
LOL
it wasnt thtttttt bad.
Den, hsh.
Gave school a missed today.
i wished i was home schooled.
LOL
kkk, back to studying yo!
5oct is science paperssssssssssssssssssssssss.
D:
but :D
cas after papers i am so gg to do so many things.
LIKE LIKE LIKE, DYE HAIR STRAIGHT AFTER POA PAPERS WHICH IS ON 12 OCT.
And go holland w Wesley, MR YEO.
which idk when to leave.
straight after n's?
nov?
mommy's waiting for my answer to book tickets.
):
TAG PEOPLE, TAG!
yst,
met up w ms yap, Claire and Sindy.
waited for darling Claire at tam sec bus stop for a long long time.
but i was on the phone w her luh.
listening to her complaining about how bad her heels were.
When she reach, she practically ran to me.
we wore same green 3 inch heels. (she said she measured.) LOL
i doubt so luh huh?
i bet yr reading this and swearing and cursing me now right?
HAHAHAHAHA
den, 'YONG TAU WHO' is my name.
LOL
INSIDE JOKE.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH
i still cant get over it.
OMG
went for dinner, w ms yap den Sindy came
after dinner, sindy left to meet her friends. ms yap went home,
Claire and i bought slippers so tht our feet wont die.
LOL
it wasnt thtttttt bad.
Den, hsh.
Gave school a missed today.
i wished i was home schooled.
LOL
kkk, back to studying yo!
5oct is science paperssssssssssssssssssssssss.
D:
but :D
cas after papers i am so gg to do so many things.
LIKE LIKE LIKE, DYE HAIR STRAIGHT AFTER POA PAPERS WHICH IS ON 12 OCT.
And go holland w Wesley, MR YEO.
which idk when to leave.
straight after n's?
nov?
mommy's waiting for my answer to book tickets.
):
TAG PEOPLE, TAG!
what we could have been, Tuesday, September 15, 2009.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
FIRST.
Aliciaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! says:
*WLAO, I WANNA SLAP YOU LIAOZXZ I SWEAR
Y. says:
*HAHAHA come lah slave
Aliciaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! says:
*YR THE FIRST PERSON I GET ANGRY W IN MY 16 YEAR OLD LIFE
Y. says:
* your hands got so long to reach tampines not! HAHAHAAH
*omg i'm damn honoured leh slave!
*first person!
*HOHOHO! :D
angry not you tell me?!?!!!!?!?!
Aliciaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! says:
*WLAO, I WANNA SLAP YOU LIAOZXZ I SWEAR
Y. says:
*HAHAHA come lah slave
Aliciaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! says:
*YR THE FIRST PERSON I GET ANGRY W IN MY 16 YEAR OLD LIFE
Y. says:
* your hands got so long to reach tampines not! HAHAHAAH
*omg i'm damn honoured leh slave!
*first person!
*HOHOHO! :D
angry not you tell me?!?!!!!?!?!
what we could have been, Saturday, September 12, 2009.
Princess Alicia Pan was so stressed up w maths den suddenly she smelled the nice smelling soap tht difusses from the toliet to the room so she went to take a nice long soak in the bathtub but she almost died cas the water passed through her skin which a permeable membrane through osmosis. Just before she burst, she came out and dry herself and took her mass which scare her so much tht she accelerate to the room den she saw Boo Radley behind the door, he scare her so much tht she fainted. nobody in the house knew because nobody was at home except her mom which was doing accounts.
what we could have been, Saturday, September 12, 2009.
Friday, September 11, 2009
I AM INDEPENDENT
at least for today.
i went dental alone, den i went to tampines library to study.
ALONE.
although i was msging sonya, weiann and daddy-.-
HAHAHAHA
i changed my braces colour to BLUE today.
yst, ps, spent $555
-.-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oiGKWoJi5qM
WATCH THIS, TMD, ONLY 2.52 MIN AND I CRIED. D:
i still cant upload pictures, someone tell me why.
i miss many people badly.
what we could have been, Friday, September 11, 2009.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
ss was alright,
im blogging today is because i just heard about some omgfkjdnvazuibviajfani news from patcharapinyopong
i totally dont believe this.
yr such a smart girl but yet, yr so dumb.
despite all tht happened between us, i dont blame you.
When people tell me things about you, i didnt believe.
i mean, i know you are wild and all.
But, i didnt expect you to go to tht extend,
being a mommy.
Have you thought of what are the consequences behind all tht you do, darling?
Does he acknowledge the baby.
Yr only 16, what are you gg to do to it?
give birth?
like, HELLO?!? WAKE UP.
Dont even have a N level cert, HOW TO SURVIVE NEXT TIME?
even if you dont think about yrself, spare a thought for the Baby will you?
girl, you need a wake up call.
ily.
im blogging today is because i just heard about some omgfkjdnvazuibviajfani news from patcharapinyopong
i totally dont believe this.
yr such a smart girl but yet, yr so dumb.
despite all tht happened between us, i dont blame you.
When people tell me things about you, i didnt believe.
i mean, i know you are wild and all.
But, i didnt expect you to go to tht extend,
being a mommy.
Have you thought of what are the consequences behind all tht you do, darling?
Does he acknowledge the baby.
Yr only 16, what are you gg to do to it?
give birth?
like, HELLO?!? WAKE UP.
Dont even have a N level cert, HOW TO SURVIVE NEXT TIME?
even if you dont think about yrself, spare a thought for the Baby will you?
girl, you need a wake up call.
ily.
what we could have been, Tuesday, September 08, 2009.
Monday, September 7, 2009
PRINCESS IS 16!
pictures soon! i promise!
Tday's first N level papers, chinese p1 and p2.
well, i think i it was quite alright but i doubt i'll get my a1.
its a damn sad thing.
i know right, what am i doing here.
ss tmr, good luck everyone ^^
goodbye,
princess is sacrificing beauty sleep for ss.
surprise?
imy imy imy imy imy imy imy imy
i want you to be there on results day.
pictures soon! i promise!
Tday's first N level papers, chinese p1 and p2.
well, i think i it was quite alright but i doubt i'll get my a1.
its a damn sad thing.
i know right, what am i doing here.
ss tmr, good luck everyone ^^
goodbye,
princess is sacrificing beauty sleep for ss.
surprise?
imy imy imy imy imy imy imy imy
i want you to be there on results day.
what we could have been, Monday, September 07, 2009.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
103 days (only a few people knows what i mean, wifey, you shld know)
i never expect all this.
i always thought you would spent my birthday w me.
you make me feel like shit.
i dont blame you dear.
i know yr busy, etc.
im just expecting too much.
i wish i was a child who wishes for silly lil things tht will always come true.
i wish i was retarded so tht i wouldnt expect things to happen the way i want.
i know this years sweet 16 is gg to be shit.
i am not gg to celebrate it.
stay at home w my books and head to organ lesson will be my routine of tht day.
i just wish this was just a dream, or, a surprise.
all my silly wishes.
i never expect all this.
i always thought you would spent my birthday w me.
you make me feel like shit.
i dont blame you dear.
i know yr busy, etc.
im just expecting too much.
i wish i was a child who wishes for silly lil things tht will always come true.
i wish i was retarded so tht i wouldnt expect things to happen the way i want.
i know this years sweet 16 is gg to be shit.
i am not gg to celebrate it.
stay at home w my books and head to organ lesson will be my routine of tht day.
i just wish this was just a dream, or, a surprise.
all my silly wishes.
what we could have been, Thursday, September 03, 2009.
OH, DID I MENTION? I'VE BEEN RECEIVING PRESENTS SINCE MONDAY~! :D
YAY YAY YAY
SWEET 16!!!!!!! :D
YAY YAY YAY
SWEET 16!!!!!!! :D
what we could have been, Thursday, September 03, 2009.
monnday;
went to school for teachers day,
headed to gvss w edaaaaa.
tuesday;
no school,
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!
wednesday;
start school late,
n2 macs w Peixin and Eda,
CHEER UP PX!
sent uncle off.
tday;
skipped school.
meeting Px and Eda later to take stuff and study(i hope)
goodbye.
went to school for teachers day,
headed to gvss w edaaaaa.
tuesday;
no school,
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!
wednesday;
start school late,
n2 macs w Peixin and Eda,
CHEER UP PX!
sent uncle off.
tday;
skipped school.
meeting Px and Eda later to take stuff and study(i hope)
goodbye.
what we could have been, Thursday, September 03, 2009.
