rewind time

2011-07-08T13:54:00.002+08:00

Okay, time indeed flies, im here now, im millenia institute alr! Promo 1 is already over and im here for officially half a year! i didnt make it to a junior college but, well, i still manage to find myself a route that can lead me to where i wanna be! :) okay, its reallt weird typing all these since i havent blog in a long long time. hahaha so, bye!

2010-11-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

ilyana! im so nice to write a post for you.
just want to thank you for keeping me awake in the middle of the night during 'o' level period, even when you wake me up and spill yr coffee all over. HAHA
i remember you like pink!
:D
kkk back to talking to you. noisy thickskin girl.
im not scary alr huh!

Sick

2010-11-11T04:27:00.001+08:00

Feeling sick isn't fun at all! ): sorethroat, flu and fever were the culprits who woke me up at 0330. ):):):):

If us being tgt is Gods plan den we will. Just when God says so. :)

horrible night

2010-09-10T10:11:00.001+08:00

I had a horrible night. Cried so bad. But I was talking to Jeremy and he made me realize that God is always there w his overflowing love. He will forgive me of all my wrongdoings. :D really thank my spiritual brother for being there. :D and weiann too!!! I just love how I never tell her things yet she'll know and be there for me. :):):):) I have rededicated my life to him and know that he died in the cross for me and my sins. I want to more like you and less of me.我已经接受了这个实事，已经是个大孩子不会为了这件事而哭。For I have the lord w me, no one shall hurt me.

exam.

2010-09-07T13:29:00.001+08:00

I made a big decision of my life today. To not go for my organ exam and go in march. Firstly is because I'm really not feeling well. Secondly is because I don't feel prepared yet. So, yeah. I hope I don't regret man. Sigh. If only you were here to tell me everything is fine...

things that i remember happened

2010-09-01T20:23:00.003+08:00

im feeling depressed now because i deleted my sec 1 sec 2 sec 3 blog posts! D:

hahahhahaha just felt like ranting about something.
o levels is near and i seem to be the only one still relaxed and not panicking when im not prepared.
prelims is now but im here blogging.
sigh sigh.
and i still can say i want to go jc?
seriously speaking, i know i wont make it to a jc la. like come on.
got back my chinese results alr and thtat day i cried like -.-
even before i got my results i was crying... :/
as they were showing the list of names for distinction and my name wasn't there, nobody in my class taking this year got distinction, i started crying like, water tap.
hahahahah.
yes, i know im over.
hahahaha.
i just hate it how people say,' its only chinese what'
yes its only chinese for you but not for me?
chinese is one of my strongest subject and if my strongest subject i dont get distinction, what about the rest?
sigh.
okay, i shld learn to get over it.

church, i remember two weeks back, i cried like mad in church.
even when i was just walking to the usual seats, i felt the tears in my eye.
i told myself no i cant.
but during worship, God's presence was just so strong and knowing that im sinning and i still do it, i just cant help it. i cried and cried and cried. for like the whole time, even during cell...
i just cant control my tears.

40 dof, eveything has been going on smoothly for m group...
things are getting better!
i still feel the excitement for every upcoming 40 dof session do you? :D

theres upcoming cell bbq and upcoming wow chase! im super excited!!! :D:D

my birthday is coming up.
and im not happy. i may seem like i am but im not. all the memories of having my bestfriend by my side... and now, i dont. nobody exactly asked me out on my birthday and it depressed me. in church, i said that my birthday is coming up... hoping that all of you out there still remember.
clique, difted.
quarreled w many sweethearts.
i do miss them.
i guess, many forgot when is my birthday alr huh?
its okay, i will still remember yr birthdays humans.
okay nobody knows which humans im refering to? hahahahaha i know can alr.
those special to me once, will be special to me forever.
joanna, elaine, gen, eda, susie.o. veronica
i miss this 6 the most i miss those times we spent.

okay, maybe im just pmsing. feeling so insecure about everything on earth these days, whats w me.

2010-08-10T00:18:00.002+08:00

i love how people tend to be comfortable w me once they know me.
i like it how they are willing to open up w me.

i may seem happy, cheery and bubbly on the out side but hey! the honest me, im really v tired already. im very tired of everything. the school work, the upcoming prelims, the upcoming o levels, the upcoming chinese results, the upcoming organ exam.. the list goes on. i feel like giving up every single day but i thank God for he bring awesome ppl to encourage me every single day without fail. i paste motivational stuff everywhere because, i dont want to give up. i want to run finish the last lap and be a champion. i want to feel as happy as i was on n level results day (although now thinking back, i think i could have done better) i want to feel the excitement and happiness as a class like how we did on sports day. i know every single one of us can do it. and we will do it. even if it means to drained us, i know i'll be filled by the holy spirit. thank you. and i know i will be able to do it. im just going to give my best and pray. and if the results come out as no what i expect it to be, i still know God has a plan for me already. :)

2010-07-12T21:28:00.000+08:00

i love my daddy and my mommy! :D
prayer walk today school till late everyday from tmr.
o levels chinese orals tmr.

2010-07-08T23:54:00.003+08:00

recently, going where after o level's have keep bothering me. pardon my english. im really tired. haven't really got enough and proper rest this week. and why am i not sleeping but blogging is because im studying. having a break. tmr got ss and poa test. sigh. why must they keep testing us. i feel like i cant do this anymore. its so stressful. i need someone tht i can pour out to be here. but, its hard. i know i have many friends out there willing to listen to me but im not comfortable. like, i just, have, a fear? idk. i really want to shout it out loud tht i give up. i really dont want to do this anymore. i feel vvvvvvvv stupid everytime i study. but i must say because of this, i realise im growing more and more holy. because i know i need him to be here w me. to be here everytime i do my work. i know i can pour out to him and he has alr planned my path for me. just waiting for me to ask him and be willing to go his way. having a soft heart and not harden my heart. i am willing lord. take me to do yr ways. despite the stress, i know i can do it. i can, you can, we can!

2010-07-06T23:17:00.002+08:00

I CANT STAND GIRLS BEING SENSITIVE AND ALL PROTECTIVE OVER HER BOYFRIEND. OH WAIT. SHLD I SAY POSSESIVE!

hahahaha. i did not post this because i like someone or whatever.
i just dont like it. never before. i mean like, look, girl, you have the status alr so why are you being so sensitive? trust yr boyfriend man. like seriously. dont control his life! he leads one. just like you. you wont like it if he asked where're you going every now and then. Or following you wherever you go, or questioning you whenever you have a new boy friend..
its dumb seriously. And i hate it when girls calls their boyfriend and when he picks up,
girl: eh where are you?
boy: oh KFC w my friends.
girl: okay im coming over now. *hang up.
wtfreak is yr problem HE LEADS A LIFE BABE!

And i absolutely dislike it when a girl enters a guy's home and go, auntie, uncle, and up to the room. HELLO?! ITS NOT YR HOUSE! SAY SOMETHING NICE DONT GO TO SOMEONE'S HOUSE AND HIDE. OMGZEE. Okay, suck up if you call it tht. But normally uncle and auntie goes for tht! no, not only them. its just basic courtesy humans.

omgzee i think if i say more, all the lil girls are going to scream their head off their boyfriend and go, OMG LOOK AT THIS GIRL'S POST! WHAT IS SHE REFERING TO MAN.

if you asked tht, call yrself guilty conscience. Thank you.

2010-06-28T22:03:00.001+08:00

school's starting tmr. i got like, flu and abit of cough? well, im not prepared. i've been playing too much this week. all my study mood is gone. i need to get it back. its about 12 weeks more? idk. ): im not ready. KILL O LEVELS, SUFFER NOW. ENJOY LATER.

2010-06-28T14:18:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANNA YONG I DID NOT FORGOT LA SWEETHEART! :D

2010-06-22T02:12:00.002+08:00

so long since i quarreled w someone. and it just had to be you. why. you just have yr way to make things seem like yr correct about everything. i admit stuff tht i'm not correct about some stuffs but you just don't. making it seem like everything is everyone else fault and not you.

2010-06-21T21:16:00.003+08:00

Yst, scape w Kian Ying, Chelsea, Felicia and Hermes. MAGIC!!!^^ awesome time together!
Today, cineleisure w Eric, Ian, Rachel and Benjamin. Had lots of fun yeah? ^^
Tmr, morning fly kite, 330, Rivy's house!
Wednesday, home and study!!! MUST!!!
Thursday, scape w Hermes, Chelsea and idk who to support Chui Ling!!!
Friday, Project shape at scape! :D:D:D

2010-06-21T21:13:00.001+08:00

2010-06-19T19:02:00.002+08:00

i deleted 32 people off my msn because i think i don't know them and i choose only to see the people who are online in my msn ^^ appear offline and i wont see you, TOO BAD. hahaha! church tmr. den scape w lovelies ^^ monday rot and grow moss tuesday rivy's birthday party! ^^ totally forgot 22nd is on tueday. gosh better msg b now tell her to change the date to monday.

2010-06-19T01:47:00.000+08:00

i miss just the 6 of us. its so messy now. conflict everywhere. im in the middle. and i dont like it. i want all of us. and, only, US. no gf's or whatever. only US. isit so hard? remember the days the 6 of us. about our tattoo joke. bet you all dont remember. tx said he'll tattoo his address on his chest and i think beng on his arm his telephone number or what. HAHAHAH. omg, i miss those days.

Meaning on the number of Roses.

2010-06-18T23:24:00.002+08:00

1 Rose Love at first sight; you are the one.
2 Roses Mutual love between both; deeply in love with one another.
3 Roses I love you; I wanna be yours.
9 Roses An eternal love; together as long as we live.
10 Roses You are perfect; our prefect bonding love.
11 Roses You are mt treasured one; the one i love most in my life.
12 Roses Be my steady; you are part of my life.
13 Roses Secret admirer.
20 Roses Believe me; I am sincere towards you.
21 Roses I am devoted to you.
24 Roses Cant stop thinking about you, 24 hours everyday.
36 Roses I will remember our romantic moments.
99 Roses I will love you for as long as i live.
100 Roses Harmoniously together in a century; remaining devoted as couple till ripe-old age.
101 Roses You are my one and only love.
108 Roses Please marry me!
365 Roses Can't stop thinking about you, each and everyday.
999 Roses Everlasting and eternal love.

2010-06-03T21:30:00.001+08:00

How long ago was my last post? HAHAHAHAHA!
Back to bloggers! :D
School tmr. ): sighs.
is there cell tmr?
im having my... so, i have all rights to complain.
OKAY, I'LL BE HONEST. I GOT NOTHING TO BLOG ABOUT.
SO, BYEBYE.

2010-04-06T18:57:00.002+08:00

i miss blogging! HAHAHAHA!

i got so much to update.
oh! i think i sprain my knee today. is there such thing? AIYA, I SAY GOT MEANS GOT OKAY?!
hahaha!

i miss you. i miss talking to you about everything. i miss calling you, smsing you about everything! most of all, i miss it when everyone know us as best of friends.
sigh.

so many things change for all the time i didnt blog.

2010-04-04T23:17:00.003+08:00

so long since i blogged.

so much to say, so much better not said.

school has been shitty.
life hasn't been really fun but i still thank God for everyday i wake up.

2 test tmr, didnt do english, investiture tmr, study tmr, school tmr, no fun tmr, so many things tmr.

tell me about it.

my life is so boring.

2010-03-18T14:28:00.002+08:00

you wont have time for me. i understand. even after you quit yr job, you've got yr studies. and i got mine. sigh. i miss you. i want a tight hug from you the nxt time we meet up alright?

Susie! come back safely! i hope yr happy! babe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bu yao bu kai xin oh! hai you wo! even if the whole world leaves you, i'll be on yr side! (:
ily!

gtg meet the humans at e!hub! goodbye!

2010-02-27T13:13:00.002+08:00

wtf is wrong w me!
nxt week is prelims!!!
last day of meeting clique today for the time being i guess.
NO MORE GOING OUT!
i need to concentrate otherwise, my A's will be gonez!

2010-02-25T21:06:00.002+08:00

SPECIAL DEDICATIONS!

Because i didnt blog on valentines day, im blogging today! HAHAHAHA.
Okay, i know its vvv late but! its the thoughts tht counts right! HAHA! ^^

To my very special usual clique!
we're becoming bigger and bigger! ^^

Susie!
babe!!! we've known each other for 5 years?
haha not long yet not short!
we've been close?
yeah. hope you and Raymond will last long aye!
He better treat you well, otherwise, tell me.
I'll sell him to bangla!
HAHAHAHA.
his bestfriends uh, *hint hint.
LOL

Raymond!
BAH BAH BAH!
hahahahah! i miss tht! well, tht time when you sick, i was hoping you recover faster so i can hear BAH BAH BAH! again!
LOL
LOL
LOL
you!
smoke lesser k! ^^ *hint hint! later yr wife scold! haha.
treat susie good uh!
i remember giving you like soooooooooooooooooooooo many names, almond, rainbow etc etc! haha

Tian xiang!
boyfriend! hahahahaha, take back take back. later yr rl girlfriend scold me bash me sell me and eat sakae.
HAHA
miss the god old times! *if you get what i mean.
from the day i know you until now you say want to quit smoking uh, until now, i still see you smoking-.- better quit soon!
and, you better not bet w susie and i when you play pool! haha.
last long w my bestie! ^^

Yong an!
you! my mommy still asking me where's the sticky sticky thing you said you going to pass her-.-
my father know you as the boy who say my room got no reception plus the panadol guy!
HAHAHA.
I'LL NEVER FORGET THE PRAWN AND CIGG INCCIDENT!
LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL
until now when i think of it, i still laugh.

Eric!
dont emo anymore!
remember, we're always here for you! ^^
birthday coming soon huh!
be prepared for a birthday..................................... BASH!
and i probably mean literrally bash! lol

Jeremy!
kor!
hahaha, omg, 5 years?
i remember i... you before! hahahahahahaha NONG NONG NONG TIME AGOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~
last long w yr girl! ^^

Benjamin Chew jun hong!
why yrs got full name?
COOL MAH!
hahahahha!
oi oi oi! dont be sad sad k, sorry i know i very slow about the b's attached thing.
HAHAHAHAH.
kkk, BENG UH, DONT BE SO BENG ALR!
haha and, smoke lesser uh!
Princess lurb lurb euuuuu kaesszxzxzx. ^^

Eugene!
MIAO MIAO!
haha, well, yang yang cuter huh!
lol, dont jealous k!
you better take care of yrself properly uh!
STOP SMOKING!
yr mother asked one k!!

Guo wei!
Arcade!!!
stop playing arcade so much luh!
if one day you run away from home, i wont be worried because i know i'll be able to look for you at the arcade-.-
you better start being realistic and stop living in yr virtual world!
HAHA

Rachel!
b!
idk if you found another clique or what but, i hope you'll join us again okay?
i love you so much. miss you truckloads too! ):

Others loves!

Eda!
Bestie! there's so much to say to you!
htht soon! ^^
AI NI~

Josephine!
Sissaye!
ai ni ai ni ai ni!
i miss lamp post! lol KFC during night study,
MACS during food rationing! hahahahahaha

Samantha!
Sis!
AI NI!
miss family counscelor LOL
and, my lit partner this year!!!

Rivy!
you!
'pon pon'
HAHA! we know each other since primary school!
so long! haha!
love you!!!

Veronica!
wifey!
I MISS WIFEY-ING IN SCHOOL!!!!
):):):

Elaine!
aiyo, so much to say! haha
i want to see yr new coloured hair!
meet up soon!

Naqibah!
err, i tell you in message if you want to know! HAHHAHAHAA.

Genevieve jeanette wu hui yan!
star!
long time since we had a long talk! ):
i miss you!

list is going to go on and on, im tired already! lol
continue if i have time another day! (:(:(:

2010-02-22T16:50:00.001+08:00

yay! im at susie's house! ^^
we're going to dry swim!
beng just said my blog died ) :
he is being irritating! k bye!

2010-02-12T09:12:00.002+08:00

idk if everything is settled. idk if im happy w things like this. but i know this clique means alot alot alot to me. each and every single one of you. yknow, i really pray for better things to happen in the clique, for everyone to be happy.

skipped school today.
reunion dinner w clique at night (?)
make nails later (?)

i miss the way we were.

2010-02-11T15:55:00.001+08:00

MOTO OF THE YEAR: KILL O LEVELS!

2010-02-06T11:15:00.000+08:00

blogskin done half way
lost mood.

till then

2010-02-03T10:08:00.003+08:00

To you:

Yknow, i have so much to say to you. It hurts me more than anyone else who know about this matter to see you like tht. Babe, why are you doing this? Are you sure this is love? What about the two you mention to me just before yknow him? why are you not telling the truth? To put this crudely, yr just being cheap now. You dont know what everyone has been telling me about you. So much for me trying to hold on tight to this friendship, yr destroying it. Not only destroying our friendship, yr spoiling his friendship unknowingly, giving him stress unknowingly.
And, does lying to him shows how much you love him? We've been friends for how long? not only friends, we were best of friends. Do you know i didnt even know about yr blog thing until someone told me? But yet, when i heard about it, your first suspect was me. Oh Lord, for so many years you've known me, have i tag in someone's tagboard scolding tht person without putting my name? Pls, i would rather, go infront of tht person's face and tell her/him str8. Even blogging this, although i didnt put yr name, you will jolly well know im refering to you. i've so much to say. but, what for? there isnt a point. you can continue lying to me, us, everyone. As long as yr happy w him, and not lying to him, i'll wish you both happiness and give you both blessings.

xoxo, if you still call,

yr best friend.

2010-01-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

Blogging w my handphone now..
i realise something today, life is so scary. Once one pass on, he or she will go through a whole lot of things in one day. Den be brought home let ppl visit the body a few more days, get burn and all left will be the photos. Clothes bags and everything will be den thrown away, ppl slowly get over yr death and move on in life. Nobody think of you as often.. Oh sigh. It's such a sad thing..

i wish i could tell you i miss you a lot. I miss yr presence. Just a msg from you will thus make me smile like never before.

i wish for things to be better in our usual clique. I miss our small but full of love clique. I dont like it to be like this. Just because of a few ppl, some of us get really unhappy.. I dont like to feel neglected. I dont like it when I'm only treated like a princess when yr happy and when you want to act like a big man, yr attitude change. It hurts me as a friend. JUST AS A FRIEND. I miss you a lot. The old you.

2010-01-27T12:29:00.001+08:00

fever, sorethroat, flu, 2 days mc.

2010-01-14T16:49:00.003+08:00

today school was crap. i was late again-.- annoying.

later maybe meeting sueeeee and part of usuals.
tmr not gg school. maybe studying w Rivy or Sue.
Saturday organ den shopping w sueeeee! and maybe raymond and TX.
Sunday, holy day. fam day and church.
Monday, school!-.-

photos for results day will be in fb! ^^ (only naqibah and i -.-) LOL

2010-01-09T17:13:00.002+08:00

first day of school was crap, Mrs Joseph, Ms Teo came to my class pull me to Ms Martein's office and drink coffee-.- if you get what i mean.

my first day of school was everyone's second day but still, its MY first day! den, Ms Marteins say she's going to suspend me.. oh wells, school life is never fun, BUT, make it as fun as POSSIBLE! hahahahaha.

thats what i do? at least that wont make me not want to go school? BE POSITIVEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

I miss work! i really do. we're having a BBQ nxt sunday! hope most people will go!! ^^

well, i know Bob is not gg though..

Usuals? Usuals have been not-oh-so-fun for me anymore. New people join, Eric, Y.A. and soon i guess Eda?

idk, i dont like this feeling. i dont like Usuals to be like this. No more those fun we had.

R have been M.I.A-ing from us, J, heard tht his mom is not well so, he doesnt really join us much. T.X. , always cannot book out. IDC if your reading this because why shld i hide how i feel to all of you right! Oh well, tonight, supper at changi village, timing will be confirm at 6 and we're not tonning, dont think so, beng says latest 10:30 we're gg home -.-

Y.A. , SueeeeeBabe, Eric and Beng came my house last night, 1plus am they left? i think.

Sec 1 oreintation today morning, suppose to reach at 7 but i only woke up at 655? HAHAHAHAH. tired uh, pops forgot to wake me somemore..

I miss being IN band, not tht im not now. but the feeling is like, im in and im not? HAHA Mr mi said so too! yst, band, Shanna, Vanessa, ANN!, Jo-ann, Nirali, Amanda came back, did i miss out anyone? HAHAHA i miss them being in band!!!

Ann, marry me!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! ^^

kkk, long post, i got alot more to say but i think all like not link den vvv random stuffs hahahaha. kkk, byebye!!!

i want to tell you i love you more than you think i do.

2010-01-09T00:52:00.001+08:00

GOOD LUCK TO WHOEVER TAKING 'O' LEVEL RESULTS THIS COMING MONDAY!!!
incase i dont have time to blog and wish you good luck! ^^

imy baby.

2010-01-03T19:50:00.001+08:00

NOT GOING SCHOOL TMR!

2010-01-03T19:47:00.000+08:00

cried my eyeballs out infront of melissa at work. i really thank her, i mean she couldnt do much about my situation but it really touched me tht someone at least still care and sit there listen to me. tmr is last day of work= school life is going to start. i really dont want to go school. it makes me so depressed, yes, depressed. i h8 school nowadays even the thought of it makes me want to cry.

someday i'll be the happy girl tht all of you once saw again. i'll be strong! i wish you were here.

2010-01-02T21:06:00.002+08:00

idk if im still pms-ing but o wells, its 2010 alr!
work is going to end in 2 days time.. D:
school is going to start in 2 days time too..
i feel, weird?
knowing tht i wont be able to see people i almost see everyday, (people at work) anymore,
knowing tht i wont be able to see certain classmates in class anymore..
this feeling is weird.
i really enjoy work and i dont understand why some really dont.
but, 2 days, just 2 days no more playing w this people..
i mean yes we can meet up but look, i doubt we will? HAHAHA
school, i'll miss wifey, ALOT.
idk who and what will happen.
O's this year, idk if i will really study.
i know its too late for me to regret now tht i choose to go sec 5 instead of ite..
gah i shld stop all this.

i need to talk to you..
i cut myself deep today, accidentally. really.

2009-12-19T13:27:00.000+08:00

Hey! Blogging w my phone nao.
Got back results yst.
Will have a proper post once i'm freeeeeee~~

2009-12-05T13:43:00.002+08:00

for all the time i've not blog, i haven't been online!
fuck, how long is tht?
oh well, fyi, im still working! i haven't quit and im having lots of fun there! bet i'll cry on the last day of work. HAHAHAHA.
k, my phone is ringing, i got a msg, will blog soon again! :D

ps, i just change my phone and i'm having a new idea about blogging, just soon, you'll see a whole new post! a whole new way of me blogging! ^^

2009-11-27T08:48:00.003+08:00

R.I.P. popo

i'll always remember the dearest memories we had tgt.
i've never regret gg to the hospital from morning to night everyday to accompany you alone.
and because of this, i realise how much you love and care for me. i believe if i didnt went over everyday, i would be regretting alot now.
gran, i will still buy the chicken essence for you once i get my first pay. i remember how you told mommy and pops that they shld not take a single cent of my pay because it was all my hard earn money.
im glad our havenly father has brought you to a better place.
even at yr last breath you agreed for jesus to lead you.
popo, im glad yr not suffering on earth anymore.
i love you.

2009-11-25T19:41:00.003+08:00

work has been fun to me but not to some?
okay, tired eyes, update a nice long one with pictures soon!
love you all!

2009-11-21T19:06:00.002+08:00

im over you. really. even when you told me tht you are gg after yr ex, it didnt hurt me at all!

2009-11-21T17:49:00.002+08:00

im at gran's house now! ^^
holland uncle is gg back to holland tonight!

working w Shirley tmr!

i just download my 'timetable' hmmm, okay luh no bad the timing. HAHAHA kkk, bye, vvv hot uh!

2009-11-21T00:02:00.000+08:00

work is super fun!
AND PRINCESS IS STIL SICK.

SORRY SUSIE ONG!

2009-11-15T19:47:00.000+08:00

yr a total jerk! >: ( V (i think only susie ong understand this) HAHAHAHAHA.

2009-11-14T21:23:00.002+08:00

high fever last night.
sorethroat and still having fever today. took panadol.
tmr still gg to work.
working w shirley tmr.
hope tmr will be a slack day again. hahaha...
blog another day, head spinning like earth moving..
hahaha.

edit/
i almost forgot.
working w susie ong on monday! ^^

2009-11-12T16:48:00.001+08:00

WORK WAS FUN! ^^

Princess forgot to bring phone today. so sorry to all whom i replied late~
Atiqah was a lil tiny weeny bit late so i stayed awhile more to company some idk-what name guy.
den, headed to T3 den, bus-ed w Bob, crapped all about work all the way home. ^^

gg grans house again later.
goodbye

2009-11-11T20:04:00.002+08:00

first day at work today was fun! ^^
hope tmr will be as good! ^^
good partner makes alot of difference! :D:D:D:D

2009-11-09T23:23:00.002+08:00

met sue, tmr meeting her again!

I LOVE SUSIE ONG TTM!!! :D:D:D
and i know she loves me too. HAHAHAHAHA.

2009-11-08T01:58:00.002+08:00

i use to thought, if i was rebelious, i thought i would get more of yr attention, i thought you would care for me more. Tattoo, piercing, staling, smoking, drinking and getting drunk? wtf? why was i so dumb? getting caught, thinking you would care. but i realise yr getting sick and tired of my nonsense. im sorry for the last time. i know my mistakes i will prove to you im gg to be a better person. at the vvv least, i hope i would.

2009-11-07T23:59:00.002+08:00

POUT!
Princess has a busy plan ahead! ):
6 months is gg to be tough! fuck it.
i need to update s,r,j,b,b! about it. find time first.
tmr, auntie from kl coming, meeting them at town at 1.
den, monday, i got to go down to work place to know the enviroment-.-
tuesday, dental.
wednesday, start work!
fyi, im working at airport, a super fun and worth it job! :D

lovee, i want to tell you about what happened. i want you to know. if you are reading this and you have the heart den, text me. pls. ily still.

2009-11-06T18:55:00.001+08:00

Joanna yong, if yr reading this, text me. tyvm.

princess just got home, gg out later again.

not for you.

2009-11-05T00:15:00.003+08:00

i hate it when night falls and im starting to be alone in the room listening to songs and thinking of you, missing you. yr the first tht i actually dont dare to text because im afraid i might disturb you. it's been some time since we met. sometimes i wish you dont have to work so hard because i want yr attention. i know im selfish. but i know at the same time, if you just please me, you wont be happy. and all i want is for you to be happy. tmr maybe the last day i go out all day for this holiday. i wish you'll ask me out. tmr im gg to the hospital in the morning den meet my girls. friday i have training den probably i'll go to the hospital all the way till eleven den im starting to work. after i start working i'll only be free on saturdays.

Every night i look out of my window, sky is dark den i look at my phone to check the time and i'll think of you, wonder if you've got home, wonder if yr tired, wonder if anything happened and also, wonder if yr also wondering about me, thought i know you wont be.

After i got my new laptop, i come online every night and wait. hoping you'll come online and talk to me? or at least come online. because if yr online, at least i know yr home safely. because of you, i learn to wait patiently for someone. the feeling never fade. when i read yr blog, i say, 'her' you stated. i wonder, who is it? a part of me dont wish its me for i fear tht yr feeling may fade someday and i may lose you. i wish tht its a girl who may shower you w love and care. And of cos, someone you'll have happiness with. some may say love is selfish and im stupid. yes, this have been proven once, twice or maybe trice. but i still want my love one to be happy and thts most important to me. if i got you but yr not happy w me, den whts the point. i rather not have you but kow tht yr happy.

boy, i love you.

2009-11-04T23:37:00.002+08:00

FINALLY, IM GETTING TO MEET MY GIRLS TMR!
JO(SISSAYE), EDA(BOYFRIEND) AND CLAIREY(NIKU)!

BUT, I STILL MISSING VERONICA(WIFEY), GENEVIEVE WU(STAR),
JOANNA YONG YILIN(ER, JIEJIE? WIFE? HAHAHA), SUSIE ONG(SUEEEEEE),
RACHEL OH(B!), WEI ANN(ANNY!), SUSIE KOH SOK(SUSUUEEEE),
YOU YOU YOU AND YOU!
I MISS MANY PPL LUH! ):

Band is suppose to start.. ):

2009-11-04T21:59:00.002+08:00

Princes says, HIIIIIIIIIII!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY! :D

im glad i told you.

2009-11-03T14:00:00.003+08:00

Princess has a chio new pink laptop :D
yay yay yay!
thank you daddy and mommy i love you all so so much.
AND A HAPPY ADVANCE BDAY MOM! :D <3<3

gran's admitted to hospital again today.
i've been gg to visit her everyday except today.

mom has a newly created facebook, msn and viwawa.
hahahah, since she has her own lappy now, she wants to learn.

okay, no pictures because i havent even put any pictures in the lappy. hahahaha.
:D:D:D

goodbye.

i feel guilty after getting a expensive lappy. but secret spoilt and i'll prolly get a new phone too. but.. hm..

im glad i told you.

2009-10-28T11:34:00.002+08:00

are all those lies?
tell me its not will you?

morninggggggggg!
just woke up not long.
i havent on my phone since last night, so sorry all who i didnt reply if you texted me.
im allowing myself to be online untill 1 den i'll pack my room, bathe and den head to the hospital again.
holidays suddenly feels so boring.
everyone is busy w their life and im so bored! i want to go out man! ):

2009-10-27T21:39:00.004+08:00

Pottie misses this woman up here! ^^

you! haha, i do miss times we had.

WOMAN!!! DIE TILL WHERE? IMY LUH K! FASTER CALL ME DATE ME OUT NOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOW!!!

B! jiayou, finish o's we can go yknow yknow! our plan!!! ^^

&i love this girl. meet up soon! sorry uh, i recently v busy.

To this someone,

you were running through my mind all day.

i remember how you hurt yrself and i got heartpain and angry w you.

i remember how we webcam almost every night.

i remember how i tell myself no matter how tired, come online, just to talk to you.

i remember how you use to say you'll sayang me.

i remember how you use to chase yr cousin away because you want to talk to me.

i remember how you use to wake up and reply my msges no matter what time.

i remember how you use to ask me out w yr friends which i always refuse.

i remember how you ask me if i trust you.

i remember how you got high by yrself and start shouting.

i remember how you say we'll have a 7 to 7 walk.

theres so much more i remember but i shall not write her.

unfortunately, i realise, nothing is happening now.

Isit me being too sensitive or isit you tht have changed?

are you really tht busy?

i dont even know if you read my blog.

well, life still goes on~

2009-10-22T14:55:00.001+08:00

you always can read my mind, no matter what.
i wonder how you do it.
ily.
yknow im talking about you. (:

2009-10-22T14:52:00.003+08:00

havent been coming online, granny's sick, dad's sick, mom's sick-.-
granny has been in the hospital since i tink a month ago! ):

new maid, pandai, pronounced as panda.
im serious im not mocking her.

vvv lazy to blog, goodbye!

maybe yr the one.

2009-10-17T21:20:00.001+08:00

is there someone i can talk to tht will know how to comfort me and make me happy?

moodswings, post another day.

DRINK DRANK DRUNK, SOMEONE ASK ME OUT.

2009-10-15T13:37:00.005+08:00

Today is an awful day!

i-want-to-be-a-boy day.

and, just now when i went into my room and take my laptop to the living room to play,

i on, den i realised the lcd cracked!

=laptop cannot use! ):

Never mind i guess. im not really upset. im more of guilty.

i mean, the laptop is not new or what so ever, but still, its MY laptop and i spoiled it.

Maybe im not sad because i know tht our house still have dad's personal laptop, dad's working laptop, home computer and one more computer which was mine and its now kept somewhere.

Maybe tonight or when mom is free i shall ask her if i can fix tht computer in my room.

The only sad thing is, all my pictures etc etc all GONE! D:

Dad has not mention anything yet. i wonder if he is gg to bring it to fix or just put it aside or throw away or what. :/

im still feeling super guilty.

okay, im currently using the home's computer.

and i think im vvv lucky.

because most of my friends when their laptop crash, they have to use the house computer then they'll have to like fight with their siblings but i have absolutely no problem with tht cas im an only child.

Sometimes i do wonder if im too pampered.

Always having new things and not cherishing old ones.

oh wells.

even when i lost my phone, spoil my laptop, i never got scoldings, not even naggings.

tht makes me really guilty though.

but i thank God im not those teenagers tht always come online etc.

i can live without the computer but i cannot live without my phone though.

okay, enough of tht, Dad has 2 days mc. so means, today, tmr, dad's gg to be at home/

:D kkk, im gg to download my songs den pack my room, bathe and then out! :D

goodbye!

NOT TO FORGET, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WIFEY IFEY FEY EY Y!

:D:D:D

1YEAR ALR!!! COUNTING ON! ^^ AINI TTM.

AND, 16 ALR DONT WHINE SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!! :D

2009-10-13T11:52:00.002+08:00

Princess just came back from dental.
D:
why the sad face?
i'll tell you why.

Today, i had a 9.30 appointment w idk what name dentist, she did the cleaning and polishing for me.
Then she applied a really weird taste liquid on my teeth and say i cannot rinse my mouth.
Then, after tht, i waited for Dr Tan my dentist for my braces.
after tht, Dr Tan said since its after exams, he'll tighten it for me.
So, i am wearing power chains on my upper teeths now.
He said it'll hurt. But currently, not at all, ps; i just ate somemore.
HAHAHAHAHA.

kay, now the sad thing.
because my upper teethis super straight and pretty but my lower ones has holes,
Dr Tan has to make gaps in between teeth on my upper jaw so tht the teeths can moves and close and yeah.
okay, thts not really the point!
the point is, THE HOLES MAKE ME UNABLE TO PRONONCE 'F' AND 'V'
SO MEANS, I CANT SAY MANY WORDS!!!
For instance, fuck, Veronica, Rivy, Wifey!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
D:
MISERYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!
KKK, but tht also means, less vulgarities! :D
kkk, goodbye!

2009-10-12T20:42:00.003+08:00

ps pardon the face, sick uh.
pps hair more obvious in real life.

N LEVEL IS OVER! READ IT, OVER! :D:D:D:D

Dyed my hair today, many said obvious but to me, i cannot see it at all! >:(
shld i dye it again?grrr.

Since n's is over, i got many many things to do!!!

i lazy to blog uh, actually wanted to say alot of things but, im like sick?

i know right, what a timing. ):

idc i'll still go out and play play play. :D
kkk, good bye!

2009-10-07T15:35:00.002+08:00

SEXY SAMMY!
Im at her house now! will blog more photos when i get home! :D
still undecided if we're (Eda, Jo and i ) gg for night study : /
kkk, blog tonight, dont miss me too much! :D

2009-10-02T22:08:00.002+08:00

i love this two girl so god damn much!

NOT FOR YOU.

2009-09-29T02:27:00.003+08:00

idk why im feeling this way.
i know im not pmsing or whatever.
idk if you'll read this but idc anymore.
everyone is trying to match make us.
i once thought i liked you (i knew tht it wasnt love)
i once thought of giving you a chance if you asked.
i once thought i can get over _ when you entered my life.
i once thought i see us. (if you get what i mean)
but, yst,
i couldnt sleep.
i pondered about many things.
About looking for jobs, dancing, studies, and most importantly,
i pondered about if i was serious about you.
and suddenly, its not you i was missing.
it was _.
i always thought im over _.
it was long ago.
quite some time ago infact.
but those sweet sweet memories are still there.
everytime i think of _ i think of those happy things and the corner of my lips will natually go up.
despite all the fights, quarrels, and unhappy moments.
den, i thought to myself.
its _ tht came into my mind, why not you.
it den woke me.
im not in love w you.
i dont even like you more than a friend (?)
i dont want to be more than friends
i dont want to lead you on (if you do)
i dont want this kind of hanging feeling to be in me anymore.
i h8 this.
i wish i could ask you straight in yr face if you liked me (like how all others say)
i wish i could tell you straight in yr face tht its not possible for the 2 of us.

i typed one whole chunk but, blogger only left this part. maybe, its better for somethings to be left unsaid.

2009-09-29T00:09:00.001+08:00

I realise i dont have a proper post for vvv long. soon alright! soon i will! :D

2009-09-27T23:48:00.001+08:00

grad night over.
More photos on fb :D

not gg school tmr.
out w beng b and s :D
love you all.

XOXO

2009-09-25T23:42:00.002+08:00

NO PICTURES TAKEN TDAY D:

went out w b the day before yst, yst and today! :D
love her to the max max max! :D
went to do our nails today.
:D
tmr morning, gg to get my hair done?
afternoon, school.
grad night, home.

:D gg to watch the ugly truth on sunday/monday w the usuals.

kkk, short post, goodbyee.

whenever i say take care, sth happens.
plsplspls take good care of yrself. ily.

2009-09-24T17:41:00.001+08:00

Dad just called he says he is not free.
IN THE END ALSO I GO MYSELF FOR WHAT WAIT SO LONG.
FUCKERS.
FUCKING ANGRY.
TMD TMD
TMD

2009-09-24T17:11:00.002+08:00

GRRR.
Everyone is so excited for grad night tis sat.
but im not at all.
dress code is suppose to be formal but its gg to be held in shcool.
So how formal can it get.
So, how formal is their formal?
I heard from some of my friends tht they're wearing like super formal dresses like those from botique kind.
But some just dresses from prolly topshop or what.
So how now.
i have like two dresses to choose from,
the others i like, mommy dont.
mommy like, i dont.
so, last 2,
One plain Pink which i mean pink pink
One brown one.
i dont want to wear my brown one cas its so sad.
i mean, brown is a sad colour right?
oh gosh.
i wish i was a boy now.
Boys are so easy w whatever they wear.
Look, no matter what they wear, its just somehow the same.
They dont have to do anything w their nails, dont have to find a pretty shoe/heel.
Life seems so easy for them, from my point of view.
okay, back to my dresses.
the pink one, needs to be alter.
But, mommy hasnt time to bring me to get it alter.
and look, its alr thursday today?!?!?
i told her i'll go myself but she insist on gg w me.
I called her just now to tell her about it.
Now, she say shes gg to ask pops to bring me later.
Whats the diff if i go myself?!?
My nails are not done.
tmr, im gg to get it done.
sat morning im gg to get my hair and make up done.
everything is in a rush.
might as well dont go.
Every other girll will look pretty and at their best on grad day im sure.
i dont think i will.
i think with how i may look, mrs j wont even let me in-.-
GRRR. enough of ranting,i guess.

Today, skipped school again.
tmr, not gg either i guess.
Monday im gg. told sissaye i'll go.
oh wells.
tmr, getting nails done, out w b.
sat morning, hair and make up, school.

i hope you were here to confort me and tell me i'll look fine on saturday.

2009-09-22T15:12:00.000+08:00

CUTE OR WHAT?!?!!?
HIS SLANG IS DAMN CUTE TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

2009-09-22T09:02:00.001+08:00

skipped school tday.
went for breakfast w mommy and pops cas mommy wanted to go to the alteration to alter my grad night dress.
But, alteration was closed.
Grr.
wake up so earlt for nothing. ):
later gg to fetch B from school den hang around till 7.30?
she has to go back for her band investiture.
haha.
:D
One more photo i forgot to upload tht day.

2009-09-19T19:11:00.002+08:00

Good girl in school u.

Went for breakfast w mommy and pops
headed to fetch Rivy
reach school
crapped like always :D
hall
walk up and down stage
get tickets
left early
took cab w Rivy and Jia hui
Rivy's house
wanted to study but failed to.
Electone
hsh

i want to dance again.

i want lg crystal.

i want to dye hair.

i want to get more clothes!

i want to get more baggies!

i want n's to faster end!

i want to faster decide which country to go so tht mommy can book tickets for me and W.

i want to stop my stomach from being upset.

i want good N cert

i want my brain to tell me to go sec5 or not (if i pass)

i want everyone to be happy.

i want you! :D

i want to stop wanting and start making things come trueeeeeeeeeee!

2009-09-19T05:45:00.001+08:00

why am i up at such ungodly hour?
BECAUSE I GOT SCHOOL LATER!
And if i go back to sleep now, i wont be able to wake up plus i'll be even tired.
So, here i am!

2009-09-18T21:48:00.002+08:00

tday, skipped school again,

slept till afternoon, watched some taiwan show on mysoju, studied and yeah, lifeless.

i know right.

After n's den i'll enjoy! :D

Tmr,

morning, fetch Rivvy den head to school for some graduation shyt.

Didnt know about it till Rivy told me just now.

damn damn damn. D:

den head to Rivy's house to study,

organ,

out w S,J,B,R and TX ?

yeah, thts about it.

MONDAY NO SCHOOL!!! :D:D:D

I WANNA GO PICNIC.

SHALL TELL MOMMY ABOUT IT WHEN SHE GETS HOME! :D

2009-09-17T21:28:00.009+08:00

/edit. took the photo off cas i think its gross! HAHAHAH.

HI EARTHLINGS!

I came online just to blog! :D

didnt go school today.

met claire in the afternoon, went to tampines library to study, NOT PRODUCTIVE AT ALL.
got chased out,

LIBRARIAN: 'THIS IS NOT A LAUGHING ISSUE'
ME: 'OKAY, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH'

hahah. tampines is a sad place.

HAHAHAHA TAMPINES LIBRARY HAS SAD PEOPLE CANT EVEN LAUGH.

Then headed to tm to get some stuff and hsh.

Not gg school tmr either. :D

AND, i'm not using twitter anymore! i've changed to plurk!
but idk if i regret deleting my twitter.

FINALLY, I CAN UPLOAD PHOTOS!

It says, screwed up english!yay! nice photo of our legs/feet! after soooooooooooo long! :DIt says EAT SHIT! HAHAHAHAH look carefully.

[pouts]

Having fun me!
Act hardworking claire!

poor knees

2009-09-16T19:09:00.002+08:00

Yst night, i had a sad dream.
i dont really remember it but i know i woke up still crying.
jaq was in the dream, and clare also i think.
they were saying about nxt year, not having some ppl from our class moving up.
sigh, so sad uh.

actually, idk if i want to go sec 5 even if i pass.
idw to go through all this pain to study and chiong for exams all over again.
its so terrible.
but, o level cert is an important cert.
oh gosh.
im contradicting myself.
so how now Alicia pan.
What do you want in life man.
terrible girl.

6 more papers to go den im free from this horrible stress.
Maybe its because im pms-ing thts why im saying all this.
HHAHAHAHAHA.
dont think im gg school tmr either.
Dad's only coming home tmr night.
if i dont go school tmr, im gg to wake up early and go somewhere, idk where but somewhere to study all day.
Tht's confirm.
i cannot waste anymore time, although i know im wasting time here blogging.
grr.

oh, tell you all about my sad life.
i saw a blueblack on my left knee just now so i went to rub.
den i rub until my skin tear.-.-
Pain okay!
after so, i went to bathe.
so obviously you bathe finish you come out comb hair right?
i was combing my hair happily, den my brush pulled the back of my stud tht thingy.
F pain i tell you.
in pain, i still had to look for the thingy for the back of the stud right?
den i kneel down to find the thing and my right knee rubbed against some plug on the floor and it scratched me.
-.- i know. but, my skin like vvv thin uh, it tear also.
HAHAHAHAHA
so, both my knee hurts now.
i so can go write in fml man.
grr.

now, im waiting for mommy to come home den we'll mum mum.
and, im sleeping w mommy tonight cas dad's not around. :D
we can have nice long chat then. (:

2009-09-15T21:33:00.000+08:00

not gg school tmr,
dad leaving to kl.

2009-09-15T15:54:00.002+08:00

Okay, annoying. someone must really come tell me why i cannot upload photos. [frowns]

yst,
met up w ms yap, Claire and Sindy.
waited for darling Claire at tam sec bus stop for a long long time.
but i was on the phone w her luh.
listening to her complaining about how bad her heels were.
When she reach, she practically ran to me.
we wore same green 3 inch heels. (she said she measured.) LOL
i doubt so luh huh?
i bet yr reading this and swearing and cursing me now right?
HAHAHAHAHA

den, 'YONG TAU WHO' is my name.
LOL
INSIDE JOKE.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH
i still cant get over it.
OMG

went for dinner, w ms yap den Sindy came
after dinner, sindy left to meet her friends. ms yap went home,
Claire and i bought slippers so tht our feet wont die.
LOL
it wasnt thtttttt bad.
Den, hsh.

Gave school a missed today.
i wished i was home schooled.
LOL
kkk, back to studying yo!

5oct is science paperssssssssssssssssssssssss.
D:
but :D
cas after papers i am so gg to do so many things.
LIKE LIKE LIKE, DYE HAIR STRAIGHT AFTER POA PAPERS WHICH IS ON 12 OCT.
And go holland w Wesley, MR YEO.
which idk when to leave.
straight after n's?
nov?
mommy's waiting for my answer to book tickets.
):

TAG PEOPLE, TAG!

2009-09-12T22:37:00.000+08:00

FIRST.

Aliciaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! says:
*WLAO, I WANNA SLAP YOU LIAOZXZ I SWEAR

Y. says:
*HAHAHA come lah slave

Aliciaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! says:
*YR THE FIRST PERSON I GET ANGRY W IN MY 16 YEAR OLD LIFE

Y. says:
* your hands got so long to reach tampines not! HAHAHAAH
*omg i'm damn honoured leh slave!
*first person!
*HOHOHO! :D

angry not you tell me?!?!!!!?!?!

2009-09-12T21:18:00.003+08:00

Princess Alicia Pan was so stressed up w maths den suddenly she smelled the nice smelling soap tht difusses from the toliet to the room so she went to take a nice long soak in the bathtub but she almost died cas the water passed through her skin which a permeable membrane through osmosis. Just before she burst, she came out and dry herself and took her mass which scare her so much tht she accelerate to the room den she saw Boo Radley behind the door, he scare her so much tht she fainted. nobody in the house knew because nobody was at home except her mom which was doing accounts.

2009-09-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

I AM INDEPENDENT

at least for today.

i went dental alone, den i went to tampines library to study.

ALONE.

although i was msging sonya, weiann and daddy-.-

HAHAHAHA

i changed my braces colour to BLUE today.

yst, ps, spent $555
-.-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oiGKWoJi5qM
WATCH THIS, TMD, ONLY 2.52 MIN AND I CRIED. D:

i still cant upload pictures, someone tell me why.

i miss many people badly.

2009-09-08T22:04:00.002+08:00

ss was alright,
im blogging today is because i just heard about some omgfkjdnvazuibviajfani news from patcharapinyopong

i totally dont believe this.
yr such a smart girl but yet, yr so dumb.
despite all tht happened between us, i dont blame you.
When people tell me things about you, i didnt believe.
i mean, i know you are wild and all.
But, i didnt expect you to go to tht extend,
being a mommy.
Have you thought of what are the consequences behind all tht you do, darling?
Does he acknowledge the baby.
Yr only 16, what are you gg to do to it?
give birth?
like, HELLO?!? WAKE UP.
Dont even have a N level cert, HOW TO SURVIVE NEXT TIME?
even if you dont think about yrself, spare a thought for the Baby will you?
girl, you need a wake up call.
ily.

2009-09-07T19:23:00.002+08:00

PRINCESS IS 16!
pictures soon! i promise!

Tday's first N level papers, chinese p1 and p2.
well, i think i it was quite alright but i doubt i'll get my a1.
its a damn sad thing.

i know right, what am i doing here.

ss tmr, good luck everyone ^^

goodbye,
princess is sacrificing beauty sleep for ss.
surprise?

imy imy imy imy imy imy imy imy
i want you to be there on results day.

2009-09-03T18:45:00.002+08:00

103 days (only a few people knows what i mean, wifey, you shld know)

i never expect all this.
i always thought you would spent my birthday w me.
you make me feel like shit.
i dont blame you dear.
i know yr busy, etc.
im just expecting too much.

i wish i was a child who wishes for silly lil things tht will always come true.
i wish i was retarded so tht i wouldnt expect things to happen the way i want.
i know this years sweet 16 is gg to be shit.
i am not gg to celebrate it.
stay at home w my books and head to organ lesson will be my routine of tht day.
i just wish this was just a dream, or, a surprise.

all my silly wishes.

2009-09-03T13:29:00.002+08:00

OH, DID I MENTION? I'VE BEEN RECEIVING PRESENTS SINCE MONDAY~! :D
YAY YAY YAY
SWEET 16!!!!!!! :D

2009-09-03T13:16:00.002+08:00

monnday;
went to school for teachers day,
headed to gvss w edaaaaa.

tuesday;
no school,
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!

wednesday;
start school late,
n2 macs w Peixin and Eda,
CHEER UP PX!
sent uncle off.

tday;
skipped school.
meeting Px and Eda later to take stuff and study(i hope)

goodbye.

2009-08-30T22:49:00.002+08:00

thursday and friday, i do not remember.

yst, was crapped.
almost got into girls home.
it's not what you all think.
this time is for real.
AND, SISTERS AND BROTHERS, THANKS FOR YST NIGHT.
SORRY TOO!
went out w eda planning to study den, naqibah came and meet us.
Naqibah told me about her dream tht totally freak me out. HAHAHAHAH.
lover~~~
soon after, met beng and his friend,
naqibah left.
head to henderson's wave.
vivo, 85, home.

today, breakfast at circuit road.
lunch at betty jiejie's house
dinner at t3.

im fear to get hurt, i hope yr for real.

yr the last tht i expect would say ' i wash my hands of you'
it broke my heart.

2009-08-26T20:35:00.003+08:00

school, though it start at 845 i was still late-.-
Rivy's house
movie
english
hsh

Effing pissed now!

cried D:

2009-08-25T21:44:00.003+08:00

My eye is as painful as yst! D:
itchy too!
D:

cried in school today )':
hugged star!
Rivy's house
pops fetch Px hsh
ws for dinner
buy books
hsh

Tmr gg Rivy's house to watch showwwwwww :D

with Px. :D

goodbye now.

ANGRYYYYYYY!

2009-08-24T21:01:00.002+08:00

angry uh!
My chinese 1 more mark to A1 and my maths, 1 more mark to A2.
wtf you tell me wtf!!!

Stayed in school till 4 cas thts when lessons end
Headed to Rivy's house, Px cut hair, mum mum,
HSH! C:

Star, i wrote you a note.
Its suppose to sound encouraging, but, sadly, i dont think it doesnt sound encouraging.
I know, life is a tough road, girl.
But, stand strong.
You may not know how much you mean to me.
I may not know how to express how much you mean to me.
But, I can tell you, its alot.
and i mean, alot.
my phone is 24/7 on.
Dont hesitate to call me.
I may not be able to solve yr problems,
I may not be able to hug you physically at tht moment,
I may not be able to cheer you up,
I may not be able to make you laugh,
But, I am sure able to hear you out,
even if it means to hear you cry on the phone all night darling.
O's near.
i really really really hope you'll push everything aside and concentrate.
I know, its hard. And impossible, but, try alright? try.
I'll give you a hug asap, i promise.
ILY!

2009-08-23T18:44:00.002+08:00

i seriously cannot upload photos!
why like thtttttttttt!
my blog so wordy now ):
boring sunday ): ):
monday school ): ): ):
tuesday even longer day in school ): ): ): ):
WHAT KIND OF LIFE IS THIS! D:

2009-08-22T20:09:00.002+08:00

BBQ yst.
came home late so didnt come online.
WHY BLOGGER STILL CANNOT UPLOAD PHOTOS. or isit my laptop?!?!
):
Today, nothing much interesting.
I want to go out NOW NOW NOW.
someone ask me out, pretty pls?

2009-08-20T23:29:00.002+08:00

night falls and, memories flash back.
sometimes i wish i can turn time back,
i'll cherish more things, i'll cherish more people.

(named by who come into my mind first.)

If not for SAC,
i wont know my bestfriend Eda,
not for SAC,
i wont know my wife Joanna,
not for SAC,
i wont know my wifey Veronica,
not for SAC,
i wont know my sissaye Josephine,
not for SAC,
i wont know my chong chong Peixin,
not for SAC,
i wont know my frienermy Sonya Patcharapinyopong,
not for SAC,
i wont know my awesome bandmate Weiann,
not for SAC
i wont know my 'greatest' ex band president shanna,
not for SAC
i wont know my star Genevieve,
not for SAC
i wont know my PTS Sabirah,
not for SAC
i wont know my pig pig Jasmine,
not for SAC
i wont know my awesome indirect senior Katherine,
not for SAC
i wont know my story teller classmate Jacqueline anne nonis,
not for SAC
i wont know my pretty Samantha,
not for SAC
i wont know my susu Susie Koh,
not for SAC
i wont know my 'ah gong' Qiufang,
not for SAC
i wont know my 'daddy' Janice,
not for SAC
i wont know my 'towel' Esther,
not for SAC
i wont know my china classmate Jiaxue,
not for SAC
i wont know my road friend Victoria,
not for SAC
i wont know my eclipes friend Jazreel,
not for SAC
i wont know my 'cousin' Simin,
not for SAC
i wont know my faggot/gay/king Naqibah,
not for SAC
i wont know my ballet partner Sascha,
not for SAC
i wont know my partner Chelsea,
not for SAC
i wont know my chicken ass Nuryl,
not for SAC
i wont know my darling nehneh Adilah,
not for SAC
i wont know my vegetarian friend Cheryl,
not for SAC
i wont know my 'K!' friend Amelyn,
not for SAC
i wont know my closest malay friend Nis,
not for SAC
i wont know my macho friend Jamie emma,
not for SAC
i wont know my POA smartie pants Leeanne,
not for SAC
i wont know ... ...
THE LIST GOES ON.

2009-08-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

I DIDNT KNOW N'S IS 18 DAYS AWAY.
F***!!!
i wanna cry now. i need you.

2009-08-20T20:44:00.002+08:00

Today skipped school,
Went bugis, walked to plaza sing,
train-ed to chinatown, train-ed to lil india, train-ed to hougang, bus-ed to pasir ris, dinner, im home.

KAY, EVERYONE READ THIS.
i planned to skip school tmr BUT i suddenly, yes, suddenly remember i got CIP to do tmr.
So, shld i go?
PLUS today they received chinese and maths paper 1 results.
so, tmr, idk if will check papers not.
SO, HOW NOW BOW WOW?!?!

i wont blog my results but, i've got top in my class for chinese and also, top few in class for maths paper 1. Both As.
BUT, CONFIRM MY COMBINE HUMANS AND COMBINE SCIENCE FAIL,
SO, GOT EM, NO B3 -.-

Last prelim paper

2009-08-19T22:44:00.002+08:00

came online for a quick post.

Today had our POA prelims.
which is our last paper.
Done and over, thank God.
it was, like shyt.
i know im gg to fail
combine science, combine humans, and POA.
maths, english and chinese might have a chance to pass.
Well, like shyt uh this prelims!!!

Not gg school tmr and friday.
I deserve a break after prelims. (although i didnt study uh)
But still... ...

Alright, update tmr! :D

2009-08-18T22:05:00.002+08:00

since young, everybody has always been pampering me and doting on me.
whenever im afraid, theres someone out there to protect me,
whenever i break down, there is someone to wipe my tears away,
whenever i need a hug, many out there will come and give me one,
whenever i need someone by my side, someone will be.
But, yr different.
Yr the first in my whole entire life tht tell me you wont be here for me, i have to be independent.
Somehow, tht break my heart.
i cried.
Why is it this way?
[tears rolls down]